It's midnight and I have that damn panicky feeling in my chest and I can't sleep. I am hoping by writing, it will go away. So I'm all moved in, and I keep telling myself, I need to go home. But I am home. I'm really sinking tonight and I hate that! After going ninety to nothing for 9 months, it's hard to just stop! I fight this every year and it usually takes about two weeks to finally relax. But to add to that, I am adjusting to living with someone again, trying to find my place, and survive the damn weather. We finally had a few hours yesterday of sunshine and laid out before it rained again. I am actually looking forward to starting school on Tuesday so that I will have something to do with my mind and my time.
My solace is to lay with Presley on the couch every night. Nothing like the unconditional love of a dog.
On a good note, I did have a decent Weekend. Not your typical Memorial day weekend, but considering all the rain, it was alot of fun. Hung out at Nat and Duders Friday night, Saturday day and night, Sunday night and Monday afternoon. I guess we are moving in, LOL. We sang top 500 oldies countdown songs and played Pit under the gazebo and yes I was the winner! I can be a bit competitive, especially after I have had enough beer. I really enjoy my new neighbors. It is nice to feel welcomed where you live. I know when I get home that Terry, the next door neighbor will be there waiting to have a smoke and beer and hear about the day. It is nice to have someone look forward to seeing you.
Last night we went and meet a bunch of teachers at the Magnolia to see Chalk. It's a smart ass movie about teaching. Watch the trailer, it is freakin hysterical. Or maybe just because we live the life or it could have been the two vodka crans before the movie. Afterward, we all went to Mi Cocina and ate then a few of us went to the Old Monk and had some more drinks, and some shots, thank God I wasn't the dd. Hung out with some people I didn't know that well and had a really nice time.
So I really do have alot to be thankful for. If it weren't for friends, this would definitely suck alot more. I am going to wakeup and have a much better attitude in the morning. Hopefully, the sinking feeling will go away, the Ambien is starting to kick in and then I really won't care.
I promise to write something a little less depressing next time.
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